camarogrl86's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- I Hope You Found What You Were Looking For ... I let myself love someone else. And he demolished me. He broke down my walls, he invaded my heart, he treated me like a queen ... like I was the most precious thing in his life. And then he just dropped me to the ground and let me shatter into a million tiny shards. Showed me the best weekend of my life, told me he wasn't going to leave me, and less than 24 hours later did the exact opposite of his reassuring words and affectionate actions ... for reasons that he couldn't even explain to me. But that blonde bitch that never left his life was such an obvious reason. She tried too hard to be my "friend," while trying to flaunt her control over his life and emotions right in front of me. He could deny she was involved in his sudden departure all he wanted, but the instantaneous switch back to a life without me, with tagging her, loving every comment or post, the fire emojis on every picture of her ... you know what? These lyrics speak to my battered heart: Who knew this heart could break this hard
I wish I could believe that person for me is out there somewhere, but I'm losing hope quickly. I'm never going to find that person. But what scares me is that it's still J. After all these years, it'll have been J, and I missed out and the rest of my life will just be one disappointment after the other. 12:36 p.m. - 2020-03-03 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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